afiisperfection's Journals on Buzznet http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[Romeo and Juliet of Sorts.]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/2181931/ Romeo and Juliet of Sorts.


And may I have known
How I'm going down
If we die, lets die together.
Lets be like Romeo and Juliet forever.
Let our love be eternal,
In this heated passionate inferno.
Mark our names in stone,
Lets be together, not alone.
But death is not the answer,
Suicide is like a cancer.
Once the thoughts been there
It'll stay without a care.
But love has no match.
this love torn story has a catch,
It will become your fantasy,
The way you want the end to be.
Shakespeare, a poet of sorts,
Turned you into a reference source.
You took his tale to the extreme,
You wanted to be Juliet, or so it seemed.
Your obsession took a toll,
Dug it deep, a six foot hole.
That Romeo and Juliet ain't so sweet,
For when tale and reality meet,
One is the ideal path,
Other is left in misfortunes wrath.
Juliet without her other,
Is one without their lover.
When she thought this was for real,
Turned out fate had a different deal.
Now her Romeo is gone,
Juliet is left to carry on.
This tragic fantasy of death.
On Romeo and Juliet's set.
]]> death julliet love poem romeo romeo and juliet shakespeare suicide Buzznet afiisperfection 2008-04-13T02:15:00Z <![CDATA[Going Down]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/2095531/

Going Down

In a hail of bullets,

Would you let your guard down?

Would you pull the gun from your pocket?

If so can we look upon you with shame and frown.

 

Lets scream.

 

We're ahead this time,

Got the next step planned,

Have everything ready to be fine.

You said, "For once we'll have the upper hand."

 

But then again

 

Though if we fail,

We'll go down fighting.

We'd have tried all to bail

Us out, if our ambition fades we're dying.

 

Is death near?

 

I don't think I'd want to live,

If we didn't win this battle.

Oh the future I'd give

To be with you. Oh how this war is fatal.

 

This is how I'm going down.

 

My dear you are immortal,

In my mind at least.

If I could jump in a portal,

show you life till our time does cease.

 

I'm loosing this.

 

I'd make you real

I'd show you what it's like

I know you'd really feel

You'll wanna scream it out with al your might.

 

Ripe my vocal cords out and save me..

 

You're just a figment,

Of my imagination.

I'll finish this until my segment

Of our love song's complete, lock my memories in condemnation.

 

I want to die in your arms.

]]> down going poetry Buzznet afiisperfection 2008-03-31T04:19:00Z <![CDATA[Rain]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/2033191/

Rain

 

Rain on my skin,
cool, calm, collected,
waiting to release
spreading that disease,
it's in the air
spreading to all.
With just one call
I knew it all,
one in a billion,
his heartaches
for love to be returned.
But for all I'm concerned
He's just sick
He'll get better,
He'll remember what's real
He goes on, I know the deal.
I'm just not the type
to be loved, to love,
loneliness it fits like a glove.
He says I'm different
I'm the one he wants,
my face it haunts
All his thoughts.
I stopped listening, turn away,
The last thing I heard, 'someday'.
I left and I know now,
love exists, I cease
to believe, its a disease,
I now understand its real.
I turned my back one day,
realised it's too late, it's faded away,
He's moved on,
someday is gone,
I lost my chance.

]]> Buzznet afiisperfection 2008-03-21T07:15:00Z <![CDATA[Monster Screams Suicide]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/2033011/ Monster Screams Suicide
Burrowed deep down inside
in a hole, trying to hide
a little girl is petrified
of what she can't escape alive.
With all these thoughts of suicide
makes it seem impossible to survive.
Her biggest fear
just shed a tear,
for she is her own monster.
And how she loathed her creator
for what they have made her.
And know that time is later
this little girl is sad
How her life turned out so bad.
Just wanting to rid herself
Of this creature, the hand she was dealt.
She swears she'll go crazy
if her memories go hazy.
Her thoughts are set
she fears for all she's met,
but nights like these
makes it seem like a breeze.
With all she knows and is willing to try
she's set to commit suicide.
When she can't get out alive
Monster screams suicide.
]]> Buzznet afiisperfection 2008-03-21T05:55:00Z <![CDATA[In Form of Denial]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/2033001/ I'm not sure what to think.
but I kinda like it.

In Form Of Denial

In form of denial
you've waited for awhile
for another emotion to show
to get you out of this low.

In this place
let emotions grace
your emotionless face
laying softly upon you like lace.

In form of denial
the emotion you wear's on trial.
Seeing if it fits,
instead of faking certain bits.

When how you look is you,
to your personality it's true.
If how you feel,
makes you real.

In form of denial.]]> Buzznet afiisperfection 2008-03-21T05:51:00Z <![CDATA[Love Game]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/2032981/ New poem

 

Love Game

When you fall

You'll loose it all.

Your heart will go

and follow the flow

Towards the guy

That caught your eye.

He will keep you there

He'll show he cares.

When time is gone

You may carry on.

But your heart will

Never fully fill

back to the amount

you loved him, to the point your heart lost count

of the beats, it beat

for him all these months and weeks

After all you still did fall

You answered the call

With your heart

and gave it to him from the start

Don't ever forget

The love you get

One day it may die

Or your souls will fly

But in the end

Your heart will tend

To betray you

Show your love in all you do

If you try to hide

We know you cried

Cause in this love game

Your life will never be the same.

.

]]> game love poem Buzznet afiisperfection 2008-03-21T05:47:00Z <![CDATA[Collage of faces]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/1923081/ When all I see
blends to be
a collage of faces
yours, appearing in many places.

Won't it contradict
what I've learnt to forget
Even just little bit
My life looses it affect.

When all I see is you
I know the end has approached
and with every step on que
my pleas to stay are revoked.

Even though our love is gone
I know this much is true
I want you to be happy, to move on
with someone new.

Ignore the sound
of my heart breaking,
my body hitting the ground
let me cry, I'll be okay, with these smiles I'm faking.

I'll save myself
I won't do much harm
My hearts not a trophy, you put on your shelf
my heart breaks apparent, but no need for alarm.

It still haunts all these places
Oh this lovely collage of faces.

]]> collage collage of faces faces heartbreak love poem poetry Buzznet afiisperfection 2008-03-02T00:06:00Z <![CDATA[Dance time!!]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/1211811/ Okay, so school dances Can be awesome.

My school's Monster Mash Dance was fun, exciting and filled with WAY too many girls dressed up as playboy bunnies. I mean 10-15 out of every 30-35 girls were playboy bunnies. I mean bunny overload. Hardly any of the awesome people showed up, lots of my friends ended up not being able to go.

My friend, Zach told me that my other friend, Garland liked me. I mean okay, but he's seriously creepy and if it wasn't for the fact that I'm afraid him or one of our other friends will hurt me if I'm not his friend, well than I'd more than likely not be his friend.

My friend Angie went on a blushing overload thanks to her having a major crush on one of our friends, Daniel, and he danced with us almost the whole time. My other friend Kim had a shy attack thanks to Stayner and us forcing her to dance with him.. her crush. I kept making mad dashes away from my one friend during slow songs/ akward conversations/questions.

Me and my friends had alot of fun. Miaondra joined us and danced for some songs. We joined Kat, Nicky, Jessie, Jessie (diff.1), Heather, Genelle, Iris, Fiona, Emily and Emillie for other songs. We joined alot of people I don't even know but are super nice.

My wings were attacked by strangers, and well also my friends. My other guy friend was over protective of my wings though.

???   

The songs were okay except for one.

Gimme More -Brittney Spears.

All In all i loved the dance, made even more friends and laughed my ass off.

Life lesson learned: Don't wear high heels to school dance.

Reason: They kill my feet.

Question regarding Life Lesson: Then whats my excuse to get out of dancing with him other than that my feet are killing me and I'm gonna sit out that song???

 

<b><u>Costume time</b></u>

<u>Me:</u>   <b>Half Angel, Half Devil</b> 
not me just costume. plus black tights and these shoes:

<u>Angie:</u> <b>Gypsie</b>

<u>Kim:</u> <b>Sheriff</b>

<u>Daniel:</u> <b>Dr.Who</b>

<u>Stayner:</u> <b>Himself</b>

<u>Garland</u> <b>Himself</b>

<u>Zach</u> <b>Himself</b>, but well unlike his ussual attire for the main part... he wore a hat (he almost never does) and diffrent jacket. 

<u>Miaondra:</u> <b>herself</b>

<u>Kat:</u><b>Dolly Parton</b>

<u>Nicky:</u><b>Puss In Boots...Feminized</b>

<u>Jessie:</u><b>Tinkerbell</b>

<u>Jessie (other 1):</u><b>Bunny (not playboy bunny)</b>

<u>Heather:</u><b>Pirate</b>

<u>Genelle:</u><b>Pirate</b>

<u>Iris:</u><b>[sexy] Panda</b>

<u>Fiona:</u><b>Cat</b>

<u>Emily:</u><b>Herself, Glamourized</b>

<u>Emilie:</u><b>Herself</b>

]]> Buzznet afiisperfection 2007-10-28T01:26:00Z <![CDATA[Hit with a hammer [my day]]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/1099061/ Today I must've been cursed with bad luck, within 20 minutes I had become afraid of a specific ladder and anything with an edge in our telecommunications broadcasting room.

I had a box of THUMB TACKS fall at me from the top of the ladder thanks to my friend Mia, a HAMMER fell and hit me thanks to my friend Heather,Mia almost fell on me from the top of the ladder (she luckily didn't fall.). And lastly Mia ended up kicking me in the head accidentally.


All I have to say is,

OUCH!

Akso before that block, at lunch, I was chased around the school by my friend Zach cause he wanted my sunglasses but I didn't wanna give them to him for like 20-30 minutes, so we were kinda being weird. Unlucky for me, he's strong, bigger than me, and I was in high heels. He gave up when I finally got past him. I never gave up my sunglasses. yay.


For two hours he kept trying to get me to let him wear my sunglasses by threatening to light my pom-pon cellphone charm/ aka Mr. puffy-thing, on fire. (it was blue I have a second one its pink, aka mrs. puffy-thing). He also threatened to light my red sharpie on fire. what the heck?? I mean that was the stupidest thing I've heard in a long time.

]]> Buzznet afiisperfection 2007-10-05T00:08:00Z <![CDATA[hair]]> http://afiisperfection.buzznet.com/user/journal/922081/ yay I'm really exited. I'm weird, hyper and I love dying my hair.

Anyways... Today I'm redying my hair. I'm so excited right now as I said earlier.

anyways todays the last day of my black and blonde hair, which I last dyed like forever ago.

Its going to be black and red, yay. I know not too much diffrent but there my top 2 fav colours, so I'm happy.

I was going to dye my hair black and turquoize but decided against it considering its really close to my eye colour and all, and red and black would match my clothing better. anyways I also had considered, black and orange (thanks to my love of halloween), black and pink and black and green. I ended up deciding on my first thought red and black.

yeah I'm over excited.

love ya,

Nicole

]]> Buzznet afiisperfection 2007-08-30T08:07:00Z